11 weeks and still counting!

Been in hospital since Sunday night and have moved wards again, I have stayed on practically every one here now, so I am well known. I have been at Barts now for over 11 weeks and have only spent 12 days of those at home. I can not believe how I have managed it but somehow I find strength from somewhere everyday to continue this long journey. I have moved into a bed next to my friend Lin, she lives in Shoebury and we both have the same type of Leukaemia and have become very good friends. Everyone else on the ward better watch out we will probably drive them mad with our constant chattering. I keep spiking a temperature and they don't know what is wrong with me, it might be an infected Hickman Line, for those of you who don't know what that is, its the line that comes out of my chest where they administer all of the drugs and take bloods from it (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hickman_line). It will be annoying if it is infected as it will mean that I will have to have constant needles in my arm but if it is infected then out it comes as I don't want to delay my trip home any longer than I have to. I am on Day 14 now and they don't reckon my counts will come up until at least Day 21 so it looks like I have to spend at least another week here!!
I spoke to the girls on the phone this morning, Natasha was saying Mama, it was so sweet but of course by the time I came off the phone I was in tears. I miss them so much it hurts. Its the hardest thing to deal with in all of this and sometimes I think its so unfair that I am being taken away from them, but I know its not forever and I will be home before I know it and all this will be a distant memory, but a very raw one which I know is going to take a long time to get over.
My family have been incredible throughout all of this and the love and support that they show every day shows no bounds. I have become even closer to my lovely Sister-in-law (sozzle sister) Helen who has been a power of strength to me, she manages to put a smile on my face every day no matter how low I am feeling, so thanks Sis! Sorry for getting all soppy! And thank you to all my friends that continue to cheer me up with texts, emails, phone calls and visits, you know who you are and I love you all so much and will be eternally grateful, its times like this when you find out who your real friends are and god forbid if anyone of you had to go through something like this I would be there for you 100%.
OK enough of all this soppy stuff, I better have a chat with my lovely hubby who I have been ignoring since he got here. I only want him for his laptop!
Take care allLots of loveSarah xxx